He’s choosing to be with you over all of the other things he could be doing and people he could be spending time with.
There are other “gifts” that a man gives to show his love that may be more subtle.
However, he still he hasn’t said that he loves me and I’m starting to wonder.
Chances that you are afraid of what people could say about you and her are very common.
Yes, these are often the option you are left when you don't know where to look.
In reality, the best option you have is still looking online on the internet. And yes, even if you are someone who gave it a try in the past without success.
If it worked for me, same can do for anyone (providing that you are not wasting your time on the unprofessional sites).
Let me address you on the right direction, starting with the following considerations.